Over the weekend I had espresso, twice and I doubled my walnut intake, I knew better but I get so hungry, so tired of eating the same things over and over. At times I feel like I'm starving and this disease is very much about malnutrition, I can no longer eat enough to gain any weight at all but if I drink too much fluid, more than a litter a day then I can jump from 105 to 116 and its all water belly. It was only last October that I gave up coffee, tea and almost everything I loved that I could eat. Now my diet is a major challenge, so many walls to run into...
In October I was down for about two months, I still hooped hours a week but it was painful and movement was limited. I looked at least 4 months pregnant, I was in constant pain, I could barely drive to Haleiwa and back I was in so much pain but I had to see my doctor, I was in deep trouble.
Today, I'm much better. I was able to do laundry, change my bed linens and cook. But it frightens me how sensitive my gut is, it feels bruised. This disease is some force to ride. I don't want to return to the dire straights that I worked thru last October.
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